confession of a thought

i envy people who can stand n just make a no 'no big deal' abaout almost anything that goes in their life..
i envy people who can stand n just make a 'no big deal' face when they are being talked behind their back n at last they know bout it
i envy people who are not sensitive n emotional just like me....

am i weird or its just an emotional dilemma...

i like people to be true to me
i like people to trust me n have confidence in me
i like people to share their feeling and thoughts with me so that i feel i am appreciated in their life

so that i too will do the same to them...

as i am easily attached to anybody who do all that to me...

am i too easy.... u tell me!! i dunno ... im just confused n heartbroken...
Ya Allah...help me...i need a light to guide me...ameen...