Starting a new life n ending one

Assalamualaikum...

Lama kan x menulis...yela x de internet kat umah..ni baru masuk..leh la curi2 masa sket...

Many things has happend lately...but the major ones would be my BIL's wedding in january n my grandma passed away the day before the reception.

I was actually busy on the day my grandma passed away, filling up cake orders. Just after i had finished it all, n was waiting for Abang to come back from buying boxes for the cupcakes..my mom called but i couldnt manage to reach the phone on time n answer it.Abang came back n pat my shoulder n said 'Sabar eh..nenek dh xde..'

i was actually stunned...i couldnt believe it at first. adala air mata yg kuwar. terkejut jgk ngn diri sendiri...suriani skrg dh x nangis melalak cam suriani dulu.
it wasnt appropriate for me to come that night itself, with the baby and all.
I went the next day when everyone was busy at the mosque preparing nenek for Solat Jenazah..

Again, i'm amazed with my own self..'eh apsal aku x nangis hah??'But at the end..when seeing nenek for the very last time..i cried..all the memories that i had with her..ran thru my mind in a flash..teringat nasi lemak nenek yg selalu ku makan dgn sambal kacang, teringat tumpi nenek..teringat nenek ubatkan muka ku yg penuh jerawat walaupun xde beza pun..tapi best je bila nenek hembus2, teringat tido ngan nenek n layan nenek ckp masa nenek dh uzur tengah2 malam (masa ni lum kawen lagi), teringat nenek mesti ckp terima kaseh everytime betulkan bantal die, pakaikan telekung die, bawak die gi toilet...isssh buat sedih je masa tu, n of course banyak lagi.

Tapi yang paling ingat n insyaAllah akan ikut...nenek selalu pesan, kalu orang buat jahat kat kite jgn balas balik..yang penting kite buat baik kat orang. AND

Arwah atuk selalu puji nenek..siap ckp ngan mak suro jadi cam nenek..Abang pun puji nenek, sbb tengah2 x sihat tu..kalu dtg umah mak n nenek ader, belum panas punggung duduk pun, nenek mesti ckp..'Chun, lakinye dikasi air..' pastu kejap2 mesti ckp lagi 'Aidil dah makan..dah dikasi air?' insyaAllah chun akan jadi isteri yg terbaik nek..insyaAllah..ameen..

Malam tu wedding my BIL, seronok tgk ariza dh kawen..congrats ariza..ur wish finally come true!! di sebalik keseronokan tu kadang2 teringat nenek, but life must go on kan..tinggal doa kite yg bleh membantu die.

Semoga nenek ditempatkan di Syurga yg teratas ya Allah..for she is worth the person..ameen..
Al-fatihah