life today n the future ahead

its almost the end of 2007, many things has happend...

got my 2nd child, my youngest brother got engaged n will soon be getting married, sudden change of life path, big changes in the company, im involving in my own business, n many more..

but the major one is moving to another continent of the world...
couldnt really imagine myself living in another place other than malaysia, im actually happy the first time hubby popped the idea, but after a while,
ive been thinking about my mother, my booming business, our house, the cost involved...

phewww....after a long talk with hubby, it was the right thing to do...cutting of everything n trying to make a new start in our life....ya Allah semoga kami memperoleh kejayaan ya Allah...ameen..

it was a sacfrice that we had to make in order to make a better life of ourself...

i would be spending a few months on my own with the kids...can i handle it? i wonder?? missing my dear beloved hubby? me n the kids have never been separated, not even any any outstation...ooo abang...i will miss you....i really hope i wont burst out when izzah said "papa takde.." hmmm :|

i do think i can manage, but i figured, the first few weeks would be quite tough with the kids n all, n sentimental dengan rindu-rinduan nyer...

need to brush my driving skills, its been ages since ive been behind the wheels...hehe...

and going on the airplane with the kids to meet hubby later on...fuuuuuhhhh...that's one tough job...maybe not to other kids, but to my kids especially izzah who likes to explore everything near her sight... oooh doakanlah everything will be smooth n arrive smoothly to meet hubby...

well...wish me luck!! i'll be needing that a LOooTTT!!

posting + matric life

salam all,
ive so many to write, and time wasnt always on my side...
hopefully i'll got the time more to write in the future..

been reading blogs from my old friend nora, she was my dear friend masa zaman2 uia dulu...

ader posting die citer masa zaman2 matrik dulu...hehehe...yes yes....the memory in uia matric is still very clear in my mind...

masa matric i actually learned a lot of things, new culture n new environment....
uia was full of budak2 sekolah agama, so like me yg dtg dari so called sekolah biasa nih...cam pelik jgk tgk diorang nyer perangai nih...cam malu2 n timid sket...kalu nk tau senang je perbezaannye,..dlm kelas yg ddk depan n byk cakap tuh mesti bdk sekolah biasa, yg dk belakang tuh mesti bdk sekolah agama...

alas...eventhough that, ader baiknye jgk diorang nih, ilmu agama n akhlak yg diorang potray tu bagus dijadikan ikutan...hehe..

at the same time, tengah rancak bercinta pun ader...maklumlah baru bercinta jadi macam orang gila bayang laa..

ya Allah...x bleh lupa betul..dahla uia matric was very strict about non-muhrim relationships n futhermore both of us, were quite active n our curricurlar activities...pastu plak pegang jawatan bhgn2 da'wah lak tu.,...masya-Allah...alih2 dua2 org nih sakan bercinta...kih kih...nearly the whole campus knew about us..ish ish ishh....

that was in 1998, hp wa still bulky, nk beli pun mahal, we communicate through letters, kesian kawan2 jadi mangsa pass surat cinta, asyik kumpul je duit syiling, sbb nak call buah hati..entah cemana public phone kat matric tu leh wat call in, entah sapa punye keje, hahahaha...tp seronok sbnrnye, adik2 sekarang yg bercinta mmg lucky, hp is cheap now, even credit pun murah ader yg rm10 je, cam x logik je...leh tulis blog lak tuh meluahkan kata2 cinta...kitaorang xdelaaa...kat hostel dok berebut public phone, balik umah kene marah ngan mak sbb org lain nk call xleh sbb kitaorang duk bergayut kat telepon...kah kah...
woowww that was the days hah..

friends...lat, fuzah, farah, syra, ad, ijun, nora, yatie, k.e., n lots more to mention in words... miss u gals a lot...most have married...kalau ader yg belum maybe i was not informed...

after graduation in main campus uia, ramai yg bawa haluan masing2... kalu ader reunion lagi , insya-Allah mmg nak pegi...

eid mubarak

selamat hari raya aidilfitri to all my friends n familiesn to who ever who reads my blog...

this years's raya may be the last raya i'm celebrating in malaysia...dun know whether i'll be celebrating one next year n the year after that here in malaysia..!

so this year's target is to visit our family's houses..n also friends....anyway last year pun x beraya sgt ke rumah sedara mara... hmm cant really remember why...

and friends..yup...must make it a point to visit some of the close friends we've got..lagipun mmg dah lama sgt x jumpa..ader yg dah ader anak,. ader yg baru kawen...n plus ader yg kene sakit teruk...must visit..must visit..hopefully Allah izinkan...

n izzah must felt this year's raya more happier than ever..eating biskut raya all day through withour even thinking that rice might be another choice of food that she can eat...pagi biskut raya, tengahahri kek raya, petang biskut ray aagain.., malam maybe kerepek...had to force her to eat.. one spoonful of rice should be a relief to get it inside her mouth..nway xpelah setahun sekali..lagipun im happy to see her happy running n laughing with her cousins n family...

n me...alhamduillah its another happy moment for me to celebrate this year's eid with my family...although one family member is in nz..( wei.. ingatlah kat nonie, x lupa!!..wink) its always a nice time utk bersalam2an minta maaf...kot2 ader wat dosa kat both my parents n parents in-law..n other family members...

my cake biz..alhamdulillah...was good..syukur alhamdulillah hubby was around to help, if not susah jugak nak finish the orders...dptlah wat simpan2 sikit n kasi duit raya to prents n inlaws..n to bebudak kecik n nephews n nieces... syukur pada Allah..mudah2an dimurahkan rezeki lagi...ameen

n again ...selamat hari raya aidilfitri , maaf zahir dan batin
from me(suriani), hubby(aidil), nur izzah airiani, nur insyirah airiani..

the ramadhan dilemma

its 3.35 am n i'm still not asleep..still waiting for my cake in the oven..40 more minutes to wait sampai die masak... jgn terbabas sahur sudah..hehe

at this time of hour, how i wish i could make the best out of it by doing something else...really wanted to perform qiyam, but my energy level getting exhausted from the all day house-chores and filling up cake orders...this really bothers me..

at one end, i am greatful that i have perform it before, well ppl do say that if you havnt perform qiyam at least lerform it once in ur lifetime, or did i get it wrong.. but then again its not good to feel ok and beng satisfied with what we have, coz we wont know if what we've done is really enough.

all make sense when u think about it in a wider perception..being a wife n all, n evry single thing that u do for the family n husband will always be counted generously... coz u dun have the luxury of time to do the things like our husband do, solat lama2, baca quran and others coz when u're busy doing that, the kids will start doing something weird just to divert our attention to them..

hmm i really do miss my tarawih session, alhamdullah i have benefitted it before n really hope to exercise it again with my children when they are ready for it..

cakes..yum yum

cakes anyone..do email me: sue_kassim@yahoo.com

al-Fatihah

its nurin...al-fatihah...i would never have thought the girl i saw in the news read in MHI was nurin..

that news then only showed an unidentified girl who had been killed after being raped. the news itself was horrifring for us who wasnt her parents, what more to a parent who had to find out their missing child was actually being killed after being treated in such a way...

na'uzubillah min zalik...ya Allah ya tuhanku....lindungilah anak2 ku ...

i was so shocked to hear at the news i almost cried...as i too could somehow understand their parents reaction to the news...

have people lost compassion...no child in the world shoud be treated in such a way...

condolence for nurin's family..n may she have the best place in heaven..ameen

hope

sometimes i do hope people can understand each other without even explaining why this n why that
sometimes i do hope people can just give good remarks to others and just have good thoughts on people around them..
sometimes i do hope that people pray for the best on others when what they see isnt what they want it to be

but then again we are only humans...

n im saying like we're all perfect..

well its just a hope.. :)

Ramadhan comes again

To all muslims out there...selamat menyambut ramadhan..
moga ramadhan kali ini is even better than before...

syirah oh syirah...

some pictures of syirah as promised...

izzah is growing...

since the birth of insyirah, i somehow feel that the challenge of being a mother has somewhat grew and getting tougher each day..

with izzah growing and needs even more attention than ever,well judging from her shouting everytime i dont respond to her remarks or calling.. orang melayu kata apa tak menang tangan.

during the confinement period, i was so-called separated from izzah n my husband to give way to my recovery...sedihnye berjauhan dgn ahli keluarga tuhan je yang tau... eventhough bkn jauh sgt pun...

by that time i know, how precious they are to me..and Alhamdulillah ya Allah for giving them to me in my life.

well back to izzah...the confinement period was also acting as period utk bercerai susu ngan izzah, so it was even harder for my hubby to take care of izzah when she is still craving for my milk during the night..tapi syukur tak terhingga pd Allah kerana memudahkan perjalanan kami, akhirnye izzah berjaya hidup tanpa susu ibunye, which was my greatest fear before the birth, coz we have tried everything to let her cling to something else other than my milk. susu formula toksah cakapla..boleh wat kedai jual susu dh kat umah.

both me n my hubby had tough times there..

my hubby told me that izzah starts to understand and grasp thing even faster during my confinement period, as she can recognizes alphabets and words quickly...even songs too, oooo sedih sungguh coz i missd all that...even i couldnt celebrate her 2nd birthday... lagi la sedih..to see her face while she cuts the cake..n her enjoyment while opening the presents...
only tears can describe the feeling when i hear her birthday song is sang through the hp speaker..

yes..yes.. i know im too sensitive...well thats me..

and know when we are back in one roof again, my normal routine continues, saying no to izzah whenever she's up to something fishy..or climb the table..or jumping here n there...or spilling water or food on the floor :)

well thats izzah, n i hope ill be there for every new thing she learns everyday...

she can now remember and recognize characters..esp families...well a note to nonie..dun worry, she still remember you whenever we show her ur picture...auntie onie.thats what she calls u...

hmm izzah..izzah... mama will always love u :)

nur insyirah airiani

Assalamualaikum....to all my blog readers (lol...if any??!!) alhamdulillah
i gave birth to another beautiful baby girl, nur insyirah airiani on 25th april 2007. This time was slightly easier than before.. people say it becomes easier on evry pregnancy..i guess its true, well in some sense for me!!...

selang seminggu, my sis in law plak gave birth..nur aisyah ayumi, n we did the aqiqah kenduri together..gamat rumah my mom in law with 2 babies..kih kih..

just finished my confinement period..n now a new life began with 2 girls to take care...

i'll post the picture later, no interesting pictures yet..